We can't all win every time Anker runs a contest and I'm sorry you take it personally and feel the need to make a dig at every person besides yourself who wins. I debated responding to you all day, and I probably shouldn't. But it bothered me, as you intended . As I've seen you do this repeatedly to others, I ultimately decided to respond.
I wish you peace, happiness, and that you'll get a break from the difficulties that make you lash out. I don't believe you have any personal animosity towards anyone here. I think you're in pain. I think depression is harder to manage than anyone who hasn't been through it can possibly appreciate. I think it's much harder to get treatment than anyone realizes. I think there's a stigma to it that is completely irrational and extremely hurtful. I think it's a struggle every day to know that in some ways, you're your own worst enemy and be unable to change that pattern. Depression sucks, all the way around, even when you are doing everything you can to treat or manage it. The holidays can make it peak or even uncover it in those who were high-functioning. So I wish you peace, happiness, the love and constancy of your fiance, the ability to give yourself a break (this is the hardest one for so many, eh?) and a Happy New Year.